I have usually been pretty good about setting monthly goals. Unfortunately I have not done so since about February. If you have been a reader for a while, you know that while I set many goals, I do not usually meet them. This ends up in a lot of guilt on my part and really being hard on myself (something I do quite frequently, and I realize it is a very bad habit.)
I have tried many different ways of setting goals and just can’t come up with anything to stick. I can’t just not set goals. I feel that by setting goals, I am challenging myself to become the best me possible. There are a number of things that I am not happy about with myself, and I know if I keep at it, I will build positive habits that will take over the negative ones.
I have been struggling in about every aspect of my life and feeling like I am not good enough: Not a good enough mom, wife, teacher, photographer, friend, etc. Again, I know I am very hard on myself, but that seems to be the worst habit of all that I just can’t break. I think what makes it the worst is that I constantly compare myself to others. I constantly think that other people have everything figured out, and I am the only one who is struggling. I tell myself this is not true, but I just can’t escape it.
For the month of September, I am going to focus on positivity and balance in my life. I have never focused on these two things, I think if I spend a whole month doing so, it will help my outlook on life.
My two main goals for September are
1) No negative self-talk. This is going to be HARD for me. Every time I get frustrated, look in the mirror, look around at the messy house, look at my super messy desk, think about my stagnant to-do list I start in on the negative self-talk. I know that this is one of my greatest challenges I have ever tried, but I think it’s going to help!
2) Find time for me and savor it. Right now this is very difficult with Hubs and I on opposite schedules. I do not have much time away from the little one, even when I am home. I want to make a list of one thing I want to do every day just for me. This isn’t going to include blogging, the budget, cooking, etc. These are things just for me. With the cooler weather coming, I am hoping to take advantage of enjoying my evenings outside once Miss C goes to bed.
I also want to begin the habit of savoring life. I want to take it in and become in tune with my senses. No phone next to me during this time. I go through so many things in my day without really thinking about them. I fly through things that I even enjoy and don’t truly take them in. I want to change this.
This goal is just for me.
I think these two goals will be very difficult to complete, but I like to think I am up for the task.
I will have typical goals each week, but I am going to save that for a different post. Today is the first day of September, and I am not sure what I am going to do for myself this evening. I think it may involve a cup of hot tea and some time on the deck with my journal. That sounds absolutely heavenly.